Time to talk about my pet and his uncanny ability to know, across many miles and through a screen, just what I need. Whether it’s intentional or not, it seems to be this way with him.
The past couple of days I’ve been feeling vulnerable. It’s hard to be dominant when one feels vulnerable. I try. I don’t stop. Because it’s important to me I keep going. But it’s not the same.
Pet is there no matter what mood I’m in. He offers to just sit and listen while I vent. He tries to make me laugh with his silly jokes. But most of all, he doesn’t push me. Until today. Until I needed to be pushed.
Pet is very obedient. He doesn’t give me any trouble, unless it’s done as a tease, because he can be pretty cheeky. But today was different. I gave him a direction to carry out and he pushed back. He asked me to reconsider. I said no, thinking that would be it.
But then he asked again, just to adjust things to make it a little easier on him. I thought this is unusual for pet, maybe I should allow it. So I adjusted the task, thinking that would be it. But pet complained again. I warned him not to push me. He didn’t listen.
I’ll break here and explain what was happening in my head at this time. At the beginning, I wasn’t really in any headspace. But I believe sometimes we have to “fake it till we make it” so I tossed him a task.
When he didn’t respond with his usual “yes Mistress”, something stirred in me. It felt like something was waking up inside. When I warned him not to push me any further, if he had complied, what that was would have gone back to sleep. Instead, pet pushed back.
And that’s what I needed to get back to domspace. The beast had been woken I guess you could say, hehe. Poor pet. He got what I had originally ordered him to do. Plus more. And more. It was going to be a painful few hours for my pet.
When I finished revising the instructions, I ended with “Do you have anything else you would like to say pet?”
He came back with “yes Mistress.”
”oh really?” This should be interesting….. “ok, go ahead then”
”But if pet says anything else he will get more added.”
He didn’t say anymore, other than thanking me at the end and telling me he’ll be thinking of me as he carries out his task. Oh I’m sure he will.
I feel balance has been restored and it feels good. There’s that part of me that wonders if he did this on purpose. He says he did not. It doesn’t matter to me. I needed a push to get back to my headspace and he provided it. Unfortunately for him, he’s the one suffering for it right now. But that pleases me and he knows this. Balance.