This was originally posted to my FetLife page on March 6, 2022. I’m positing it here as a catch up. For my most recent thoughts on this, see my last post i’m BAAACK! Questioning My Submission I think I’m a bad submissive. Or maybe not a submissive at all? Or maybe just submissive in the […]



I read a writing on fet the other day about doing D/s through text. It gave some great tips, not just for online dynamics, but for whenever you can’t be with your partner. One of the tips was about using Caps/uncaps, ie, “Sir i would really like to play with Your pussy today, if You […]

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Should I Stay or Should I Go?

“But Siiiirrr, I’ll be the only one exposed!” “Yeah, so?” “I know! I’ll just tell F to make A show her tits too!” “No you won’t.” “Oh yes I will! I’m gonna tell him to expose A so I won’t be the only one!” “No. You won’t. Because you are a submissive and you don’t […]

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Emotional SM vs Emotional Abuse

I read a writing on Fet about Emotional Sadomasochism (ESM). The author writes about the difference between consensual ESM and emotional abuse. He warns the reader that if your partner is doing these things (I will provide a list) without your consent, or tells you this is how they do D/s so you should just […]

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Sometimes D/s is boring

I was once told, at the beginning of my journey into D/s, by someone who had been around for quite awhile, that the life a submissive living D/s 24/7 is more often than not boring and uneventful. This is because the sub spends a lot of time waiting to be useful to their Dom. This […]

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The reality of D/s

Sir and I were lying in bed talking the other night. I forget exactly what I said, but it was something about protocols in D/s. He called me on it. He said I had mentioned protocols enough times lately that it must be something I feel is missing, and wondered if I felt I needed […]

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But then…

I complain about wanting certain things in my D/s dynamic, but then I spend the night with Sir and wonder what the hell was I complaining for? He exerts his Dominance over me in so many ways, some subtle (“You’re going to do this for me” followed by “good girl”), some not (grabbing my hair […]

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Problems in Paradise?

It’s been a while since I have posted. I’ve been a bit down lately. I haven’t been able to put into words how I’m feeling. I’m still not able, but I will try. Sir and I continue to have hot, steamy, messy, prolonged sex, often rough and hard just the way I like it. Spankings […]

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600+ Followers, As Promised

Whenever I reach a milestone in followers, 100, 200, 300… and so on, I post a photo as appreciation. Before I get to the photo though, I thought I’d take this opportunity to summarize my story, for my newest followers. Feel free to scroll straight to the photo if you feel this is a repeat […]

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Obedience oriented submissive

I’ve had a discovery of what I am, but I still don’t know what I need… I started reading a new book, called “Conquer Me” by Kacie Cunningham and almost immediately I had a profound realization about my submissive self. I am not a sevice-oriented submissive. That’s not the realization though. I’ve known that about […]

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